Mastering friendships post-college

College friendships can be some of the most fulfilling friendships you make throughout your life, enhanced by the ease of being together constantly and embarking on similar life journeys. College friendships can feel very natural, as if your friends are like extensions of your arms. Your lives feel effortlessly entwined by the commonality of university and emerging adulthood.  

Your Saturday nights probably involves a party or two, stumbling back to your shared apartment and regaling over brunch the next morning. You are all in the same phase of going to classes and working on a major and hoping for that perfect internship, and it is likely that none of your friends are engaged or married yet, leaving loads of time to hang out together. Friendships at this stage of life feel easy and natural and probably pretty awesome. Your friends are there at the drop of a hat if a boy makes you cry, or you failed an exam, or if you simply want someone to go out and get tacos with. During college your friends can feel a lot more like your family. And it rocks. 

And then it all changes. After college real life pops the bubble of squad goals and girl tribes. Someone moves away for a job. Someone moves in with their parents in suberbia. Someone ends up with a 60 hour work week job. Someone gets a boyfriend and falls off the face of the earth. Life happens and the perfect storm of obligations, expectations, and change begin to chip away at the once impenetrable forces of friendship. 

Everyone handles these changes differently, some friend groups thrive and other dwindle under the new pressures of life. But just because life has a pesky way of changing the dynamic of our once unstoppable girl squads doesn’t mean that our friendships are lost.  Our friends do indeed change over time, but it is a natural part of life and not something to fear. Rather than mourning the end of an era it is important that our friendships evolve and shift over time as life does. Friends are really more like fine wine, they get better with age. 

So how can our friendships age with grace?

1. Make time for them!

If you want your friendships to survive after college you are simply going to have to make time for them! Call them up and make plans! Consistently schedule in special friendship time, say yes to plans, invite them to do things! Don’t let life get too much in the way that months go by and you wonder what happened to your friends. Don’t merely subsist on social media to recharge your friendship either, in-person interaction and meaningful quality time is the key to healthy, successful relationships.

2. Don’t hold them to impossible standards of devotion and loyalty

Some of us really don’t want to let go of the ease of college friendships, and I totally get it. We dont want to admit that our BFFs might not live with us anymore or might have made new friends at their new jobs, or in some way moved on without us and so we hold on tightly to old rituals. Maybe you and your BFF use to stay up late talking until 2am in college, but now you both have to get up at 6am for work and that is no longer an option. Maybe now your BFF has a demanding job and a new boyfriend and she cant hang out as often. It is important to accept that we might not always be our best friend’s number ones and that life changes our priorities.  Therefore, don’t get angry or demanding with your friends when things end up not being “like they use to.” It is important to move on and let go of the past and instead enjoy the present for what it is. It doesn’t mean your BFF doesn’t love you anymore if you dont hang out every day, it just means that the friendship is evolving and that is okay. Remember that people will come and go from your life, but the true friends stick around through thick and thin. 

3. Don’t drop your friends when you get into a relationship 

This is the number one rule of girl code, and yet it gets harder over time. As you transition into your mid to late twenties seemingly everyone is getting engaged and married and it can seem natural and even normal for you to start making your man number one at all times. And sure your significant other is going to play a huge role in your life, yet it is imperative that you dont let your relationship take over your life while your friends fall to the wayside. Carve out special time for your friends and be sure to not bail on them when bae wants to makes plans. Make sure your friends know how valuable they are to you whether that be with a weekly coffee date or routinely checking in via text. Not only is it important to maintain friendships in case of a breakup, but also because of how grounding and supportive friendships can be at all stages of life. just because you have a boyfriend, fiancé or spouse does not mean that you don’t need friends. You certainly cannot expect your bae to meet all of your needs, but your friends can often be that dose of reality that keeps you centered and encourages you to be the best version of yourself. 

4. When your life changes make room for your friends in your new life 

After college is often a time for big changes, maybe a new job across the country or a Masters degree abroad, or maybe someone is getting married or expecting a child. These huge changes can put us in profoundly different phases and spaces of life from our friends, and yet it is important to make room for them in whatever new phase of life you have entered because no matter what you are going to want and need your friends by your side. if you move far away make sure to keep in touch and plan visits between you and your friends, invite them to come stay in your cool new pad in London or out to dinner with your new work friends. If you have a baby or get married make room for your friend in your new world. Invite them over for dinner with your spouse or keep a weekly date to hang out like old times. Set up a play date with the baby and your friends, or ask them to babysit, little things like that can help your friends to feel more involved with your new life. 

5. Show up for them when it matters, not just when it is convenient 

It can be so easy to bail on plans when you don’t live with your friends, all you have to do is say you are too busy or too tired and bam off the hook. if your friends live farther away you might not feel driving, or it might just feel more comfortable to stay home rather than make plans in the first place, but friendship is not about convenience. Sure we all have nights where we just dont have it in us to go out and socialize, but part of being a good friend is showing up when it matters, not just when we feel like it.

When something is really important to our friends, no matter how inconvenient, we need to do our best to make it and them a priority. It can be easy to get into a routine of only saying yes to the things we want to say yes to, or flaking on plans in favor of a better option, and yet this is counter-intuitive to what it takes to be a good friend. The problem with this is that once we get in the habit of flaking and bailing on plans when it suits us, it is easy for your friends to grow distant or to feel like you are rejecting them. That is not to say that you have to always rework your schedule to suit your friends or you must say yes to everything, but rather shift your focus to make an effort to show up for your friends when they need you. It is okay to say no, but just be careful about saying no too often and be sure to always make follow up plans when something falls through. 

6. Hold on to some traditions and make news ones 

Traditions are a wonderful way to create shared memories and experiences with loved ones, and yet as time ticks by and life evolves some traditions are going to change. Perhaps a college ritual was to go to a certain college bar and dance until 3am on a friend’s birthday, but as time passes that no longer feel fun or appropriate. It is important to create new traditions that match where we are at in life, but to also hold on to certain ones that remind us of where we have come from and create sensory bonds between the past and present. Maybe every fall you and friends decorate cookies or you plan to spend every Fourth of July at someone’s lake house. While yes things are going to change and we may have to loosen our iron grips on certain rituals of the past, we should also make active efforts to keep certain memories and traditions alive, not just as an act of preserving our memories, but as a cherished act of creating new memories with those we love. 

7. recognize who your true friends are and who was just there out of convenience 

Time is going to not only solidify some bonds but it will also break down others as a telltale sign of who your true friends are. Part of why college feels so awesome is the sheer amount of “friends” you might have, but as time passes that number is sure to dwindle. This can feel disheartening or even depressing, and yet there is a true benefit to the passing of time and evolving of relationships, which is that it helps to clarify who your dearest friends are. During college you will have many friends out of convenience, those whom you have classes with, or live near to, or those whom you see at a lot of the same parties. But after those conveniences go away you are left with the friends whom you truly connect with on a multitude of levels, these are the people to keep investing in and which relationships to nurture. 

8. never stop making friends!

The older we get the less comfortable we get with making new friends or cultivating new relationships. Usually around age 22 we hit a wall where we stubbornly refuse to make any new friends, those we have are just fine thank you very much. We have long forsaken the playground rituals of playing with anyone and anything and declaring them our new Bff ten minutes later, and after college it can feel foreign and awkward trying to forge new friendships. And yet this attitude can keep us from some of the most rewarding relationships in our life.

There is no law that says we must have all our friends by age 23! Friendship is a timeless experience that transendes age or period of life. No matter how awkward we might feel approaching a new co-worker or saying hi to the new girl in yoga class these little steps can help push us outside of our comfort zones and to cultivate new, fulfilling relationships. If we are too comfortable with the same people, the same circumstances, the same social circle all the time we aren’t being challenged, and if we arent being challenged we aren’t growing. By going out and meeting new people and trying new things we are sure to encounter diverse people who differ from ourselves and can push us to experience new ways of thinking and living and expand our horizons. 

Friendship aren’t always easy, and the ones worth having are certainly going to pose challenges over the course of our lives, and yet true friendships are an investment worth making. While circumstances shift and contexts evolve, our friendships are going to require more effort and more upkeep than perhaps they required in college, and yet the friendships that you can nurture into your late twenties and beyond are the friendships that are the most meaningful. The best things in life never come easy, but that is why they are worth it.

good luck out there,

Elli xoxo

The Overwhelming Reason Modern Dating is Toxic

Discerning the reason why the dating lives of young people have become such a downright mess has become a national pastime.

Is it hookup culture? Is it excessive drinking? Patriarchal oppression? Feminism? Global Warming? Too much sex? Not enough sex? The orgasm gap? High divorce rates? Disney indoctrination? Tinder? All of the above?

And yet seeminly the only thing we can find to agree upon is that the modern dating culture, or lack there of, is in shambles. And I mean real shambles. Like men and women are at each other’s throats. And unsurprisingly, both men and women are reportedly less happy than in previous generations.

Truth be told, there are indeed many factors at play in why today’s dating culture sucks, and truth be told it has to do with both men and women, and an array of actions, attitude and behaviors. There are no mere victims and perpetrators in the cast of modern dating, most men and women bear their share of grievances and faults in what makes this dating culture so toxic and unfulfilling. 

Yet, in spite of the reality that nothing is ever black and white, there is a root cause for why so many millennials are fed up with dating. 

Both genders think they have it harder.

Both want to cry out victim status. The result is that both genders want to use their victim card to rationalize negative behaviors and to negate sheer laziness when it comes to wooing the oppossite sex. I am sure there are some out there right now that would cringe at the mere idea of having to “woo” the opposite sex, given how “unfair” dating is, and how “unfair” their gender already has it.

Common logic is as follows: I am a girl, I already have to fight to stay afloat in a man’s world, I have to stuff my tits into a bra, put on eyeliner so I can look like eye candy to entitled men and then try not to talk too much in meetings lest I appear “too bossy and bitchy” and a man has the audacity to think that I should cook for him/ look nice for him/ blow him/ whatever dating ritual?????

Most feminist dogma encourages and perpetuates these ideas of oppression and unfairness. This is not to say that all complaints are invalid, but rather that much of feminist rhetoric centers on things that are seemingly unfair to Western, comparably privileged women. 

As for men, the logic is somewhat more counter-cultural, but still just as loud among young men. “I am expected to pay for her, buy her gifts, commit to her, treat her like a princess and then put up with whatever drama, dozens of other sex partners and inevitable divorce and loss of assets all because she might once and awhile have sex with me? No thanks.” 

Regardless of where you might fall in the “debate,” both genders have some qualms with the fairness of it all. Men are tired of being the scapegoat for the world’s problems but never getting to share their own issues, and women are tired of having to masquerade as dainty little sex objects for a man’s pleasure. 

The result is that both genders want to be “the victim,” to sit on the highest rung of the hierarchy of suffering and hold social, cultural and emotional power over the other as reparations for the unfairness of it all.

You might be able to pick up on the fact that such an attitude is a poor foundation for dating. Feminist writer, Blythe Robinson, picks up on the irony in her book “How to Date Men When you Hate Men,” which capitalizes on the notion that she feels oppressed by the same gender she wants to have sex with. This sentiment is the exact reason our dating culture sucks. 

Subsequently, both genders become lazy in their dating rituals. Men don’t want to pay, or do much to court a lady at all. Most men are out for sex and little else, feeling as though dating is really a zero sum game. Why put in the work for sex when you can get sex without all the romantic gestures and niceties? Casual sex is looked upon by both genders as a way to meet a primal need without the emotional, financial, time investment that dating once required.

And women are just as cynical. All men suck. Romance is dead. I don’t need a man.

The result is a toxic dating culture built upon mistrust and vengeful manipulation. Both want to come out on top as caring the least, being the least invested, but also getting to lord victim status over the other as a means of justifying their broken intimacy.

Neither gender wants to become vulnerable, arguably the key to a successful relationship, because both are afraid of getting hurt, of having to succumb to the perils of a broken heart, a used body, a manipulated self. It is a self inflicted cycle. Each gender treats the other poorly then the other gets upset and retaliates in order to “even the score card.” Each broken relationship then weights the person down with even more emotional baggage that they must carry into the next relationship. 

With such a negatively saturated dating culture in place it is rare to find a good man willing to put in the effort to court a woman, or a good woman who really wants to take care of a man. The very idea might even seem outdated or even oppressive or foolish to a modern audience. And yet those who are willing to put in even a fragamant of effort into bettering themselves as a partner will seem miles ahead of the other candidates. 

A woman who invests in learning to cook, takes care of herself and displays nurturing qualities will be miles ahead of the majority of women out there; and a man who puts on a clean shirt, gives a woman his undivided attention and picks up the check without expecting sex will seem like prince charming to most romance-starved women. 

And yet we have been culturally conditioned to see such acts of betterment as indicators of oppression, as symptoms of objectification and strict gender roles rooted in… you guessed it oppression. 

All it really takes is for one person to stop the cycle and to take responsibility for their own actions, rather than predicating their own actions on the actions of others, or historical injustices. All it takes is for one person to choose kindness and compassion and self improvement rather than indignation, irresponsibility or selfishness. They must make this choice over and over again. 

A continuous decision to work on ourselves, to take responsibility and to mold ourselves into the partner our dream partner is worthy of can change our whole dating climate one date at a time. It isn’t up to some external social force to combat gender injustice, it is up to us to be both better partners and to demand better partners.

If we aren’t seeking ways to bless the other gender how can we expect to be good partners or to date good partners?

Good luck,

Ellie Xoxo

Self Care: Re-focusing on self-improvement in an age of selfishness

 Most people have an easy time accepting green juice and facials and Pilates as a form of self care, but we have such a harder time accepting self control, responsibility, stewardship, self respect, and patience as acts of self care as well. 

As stewards of our hearts, minds and bodies it is up to us that we practice self care in more ways than just mani/pedis and meditative yoga. It is important that we also practice self care for our hearts and minds by saying no to things that do no serve us, or who do not build us, or that keep us astray from our goals of the kinds of people we want to be. 

I feel that the conversations surrounding self care have been disparagingly absent of introspection. Self care has come to embody tangible, physical practices like eating clean and working out, eliminating toxic people and elaborate spa rituals, and yet when do we focus on what is on the inside as much as what is on the outside? Mainstream visions of self car often emphasize external factors in need of change, and instead lack components of self-accountability. It is usually something outside of ourselves that needs to be changes, eliminated, disposed of, or altered in order to “improve” things, rather than heading to the root, ourselves.

Cleaning up our tangible environments can be therapeutic, practicing yoga can make us strong, using a facial cream can make us pretty, and cutting out negative people can make us feel better, but if we are not actively cleaning up ourselves on the inside we are going to continue to feel unfulfilled and yucky. 

And yet it is much much easier and frankly more comfortable to call a wine and Netflix night self care rather than doing the dirty work of cleaning up our souls. What if we focused on self improvement and the challenging task of humbling ourselves as self care? What is self care was recognizing ways that we are toxic, hurtful, selfish and unkind and then seeking ways to change that behavior? How would that change our perspective? How would that better our lives? How would that challenge us? 

Self care has become a romanticized, socially justifiable way of acting selfishly. We cancel plans, spend money we don’t have, and give ourselves permission to behave however feels good in the moment all in the name of self care. 

In many ways self care dangerously toes the line of “worship of the self,” as it prioritizes ones own needs above others, lacks humility, emphasizes innate goodness in ones self, and encourages whatever feels good regardless of long term consequences. And the biggest problem is that it is portrayed as virtuous and excusable. 

I want to challenge myself and other women to reflect on self care in a new light. What if instead of it being a self-centered process it became a selfless one? What if we focused on recognizing ways that we could change our own actions, attitudes and behaviors in favor of ones that reflect a spirit of love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self control? 

Facials and shopping are great, don’t get me wrong, but they aren’t going to bring us any closer to joy, fulfillment, peace, introspection,  or truth in our own lives. 

So how can we change the focus of self care? What can we instead focus on? 
Here is a list of ways we can re- focus on self care:

1. Ask for forgiveness

The best way to relinquish yourself from resentment, bitterness and  anger in favor of more peace is by forgiving those who have hurt you.  Forgiveness is not for the people who have hurt you, it is not an act of them accepting blame or admitting fault, it is an act of you relinquishing yourself from anger and resentment. Forgiveness is for you and your own peace. 2. Practice gratitude   Practice giving thanks for the blessings in your life, whether by making a list or showing your thankfulness to people in your life. Thankfulness is a lifestyle and not just an attitude to adopt when things are going great. Thankfulness is a choice to find and relish the blessings in life no matter the circumstance. 

2. Admit to flaws and imperfections

We can’t get anywhere in self improvement journeys without first admitting that we have faults and failures. Sometimes this means admitting we aren’t perfect and sometimes it means not blaming others for the things that have gone wrong in your life. it is important to accept responsibility and to knowledge that we are all broken individuals in need of forgiveness. 4. Practice humility
Hand in hand with accepting fault is recognizing that we aren’t all “perfect just the way we are,” in fact we are broken people in a broken world. I don’t say this to be depressing and morbid to but to offer perspective as we go through life and interact with others. Humility means thinking of others instead of our selves. Humility doesn’t mean viewing yourself as inferior, rather it is rooted in serving others and viewing one’s self with modesty. CS Lewis said it best when he said “true humility is not thinking less of yourself, it is thinking of yourself less.”

3. Practice acts of service and expect nothing in return 

Want to know how to feel really good about yourself? Focus on someone else! Practicing service, from just listening to a friend or serving at a local charity can grant us both perspective as well as personal fulfillment. Contrary to popular belief, it can actually be exhausting to think about yourself 24/7. Rather,  serving those around us without any expectation for reparations is a wonderful way to redirect our attention and re-align our purpose, values and goals in life. 

4. Practice self control 

Self control has gotten a bad rep in recent times, as we have culturally gravitated more into glorifying self acceptance and giving into ones’s urges. And yet self control is an age old virtue that asks us to practice discipline rather than just giving into whatever feels good in the moment or might satisfy our lusts. Self control releases us from the prison of continually seeking out novelty and pleasure and instead helps us to align with seeking out what is enriching, life giving, encouraging, and righteous. Self control helps us find empowerment via discipline. Self care isn’t all about just giving into what feels good in that moment, self care means taking steps today that help us to have a better tomorrow, even if it isn’t always what is the most fun or the most comfortable. 

There is a reason the monks are celibate and why fasting is a component of religious practices, it is because self control makes you stronger, more alert, more aware and more in control of your actions, attitudes and behaviors. Meanwhile constant pursuit of pleasure makes you weak, malleable and distracted from things that really matter. 

As women let’s especially practice true self care and empowerment by seeking out actions, attitudes and behaviors that help us grow. Pursuing what is truly “best” for us is often uncomfortable and challenging rather than always been fun, novel, or comfortable and yet it is those steps that are necessary to take to help us cultivate our best character traits. Yes we are all born as valuable humans, but that doesn’t not mean that the work stops there. In fact in order to cultivate more loving, peaceful, wholesome, faithful virtues it is important that we push ourselves each and every day to turn from what is not feeding those characteristics and helping us to grow into the best versions of yourselves. 

I love me a good facial and dropping some cash on Amazon, but it is so important that I recognize that if we really want to cultivate our best selves we need to start by cleaning up what is on the inside and adopting new patterns of actions, attitudes and behaviors.

Good luck,

Ellie xoxo

A few things I wish someone had told me before I went to college

Aw college, the hallowed halls of higher education, molding the great minds of our next generation…. 

I think it is safe to say that college has evolved over the last few centuries, from esteemed halls of prodigy, to a holding zone for young adults between the ages of 18-22, who aren’t quite ready to become responsible adults yet, but have also outgrown living at home and curfews.

The focus has shifted from being a space for the most brilliant minds to congregate and build careers and more to that of a four year long social gathering focused on fun, personal exploration and social programming. 

That in mind, I loved college! But as we know, college is certainly not all about education and learning. Today’s college experience is now embedded with social traditions, cultural norms, and hegemony surrounding the types of experiences you shouldbe having. The college experience has absorbed lots of ideas about dating, sex, lifestyle and relationships, some of which are downright harmful. The truth is that the college experience is going to be different for everyone and what might be really fulfilling for one person might not be for someone else. 

Yet there are definitely a few things I wish I had known, and can now look back on with a new appreciation and understanding of: 

  1. Most college guys, no matter how awesome, will probably not make good boyfriends 

Most college guys are in party/hookup/selfish mode which is pretty much mutually exclusive to the boyfriend/ selfless/ commitment mode. And trust me I know that every girl out there thinks she can “change” him, or “he just hasn’t met the right girl yet,” and while there certainly are some diamonds in the rough out there, most college guys just aren’t ready to be good partners. They are in a self-centered phase of life where most guys are still maturing and figuring themselves out. Yet, while they are still in college surrounded by booze, hookup culture and irresponsibility, most college guys are just simply not in the frame of mind to be good boyfriends or even boyfriends at all. 

The moral of the story is that for the most part college guys need to be taken with a grain of salt, and don’t be surprised when that cute guy you’ve been seeing every weekend for three months “doesn’t want anything serious.” 

2. Be okay being alone/ single  

If most college guys are simply not commitment material that means that girls need to learn the fine art of being single. And an art it really is, especially when the culture is constantly telling us that we need a relationships status to define us. Ladies, learn to be comfortable being on your own, and being your own identity independent of another person.

On the other hand, lots of girls feel that college is a time to experiment or to not be held back by a relationship, and so they turn to hookup culture to meet their physical needs while also maintaining independence. And yet, sex is almost always messy, even if you think you are just keeping it casual. Pair bonding and hormones and old-fashioned feelings are a very real part of sex we cannot and should not ignore. 

3. Hookup culture is not for everyone and that is okay

Hookup culture is a vast and ingrained part of the college experience, in which most college freshman step onto campus thinking they are going to get laid every night of the week. The media in particular has promoted such an idea in TV and movies, and magazines. College students are left with the impression that not only is hookup culture a significant part of university, but that it is necessary to a fun, fulfilling collegiate experience. While yes, lots of college students are going to have casual sex it is A. Not necessary to your college experience and B. No, you won’t be the only one that feels that way. In fact most students will actually not be partaking, or at least not partaking to the extent you think they are partaking. I feel like many students participate because they feel like it is what they oughtto be doing or that if they don’t they are missing out on the sexual revolution. Sex is a very personal choice, and one that should not be molded based on the peer pressures around you or the social stigmas attached to what collegeshouldlook like. 

4. Wild partying and abundant drinking is not an indicator of how fun and fulfilling your college experience is

As with sex, the college experience is convoluted with images and connotations about what sorts of debauchery you ought to be partaking in in order to be living your best collegiate life. The truth is that while college will certainly be filled with fun and late nights and wild adventures, don’t believe the lie that alcohol must be the catalyst for all your best college stories. Some of your best college memories will be cooking dinner with your roommates, or going for a long heartfelt walk on campus with you bff, or a spring break road trip, or renting kayaks at the local lake or hiking with your dorm floor. College doesn’t’ have to be hedonistic to be fun or satisfying.  

5. Get involved in activities and find a tribe 

Again, this is pretty cliché advice, but the college experience is fueled by finding groups of like minded people with similar interests. Whether it be clubs, sports, teams, the arts, or student government find something you enjoy doing and a group of people you enjoy doing it with. This is a great way to make lifelong friends as well as pursue passions and interests in a particular niche, something that becomes harder to do after college when life gets in the way. 

6. Know the different between when you are better off going to sleep and when to stay up 

I feel like puling all-nighters and wild nights spent staying up into the wee hours are portrayed as staples of college, but I am here to tear that myth apart. Sleep is important. There will be some nights where staying up is necessary, like having an important conversation with a friend or a fun night out that you know will make a really special memory. However, most nights rest is essential, and you are better off going to sleep. Your future self will thank you. 

7. Never take everything you learn in class as the gospel truth, always be a discerning consumer of information 

Yes, for the most part your professors are intelligent, worldly, experienced individuals who are probably smarter that you, but the difference between the mass hordes of students who get pushed through the college system, and truly wise students, are those who ask questions, analyze what they are told, and are discerning consumers of information. Anyone can sit in a class and take notes like a robot, but the best and brightest will question what they are told and go deeper. Remember most universities have an agenda in regard to what they want their students to walk away with after four years, and it isn’t just a degree. It is your job to figure out what that agenda is, and then judge it to see how well it correlates with your beliefs, values and judgements about the world. 

8. Going to college is not for everyone- there is no golden ticket to success! 

In light of the college admissions scandal, please note that going to a four-year university is not the golden ticket that we have been programmed to see it as.   It is also not the straight and narrow to success.  And yet, all students are different and everyone is on a different path, in which a 4 year degree is not necessarily the best path for every student. Likewise, your college experience is what you make of it. whether you are at Harvard of a poorly ranked state school, your college experience has the potential you allow it to have. We put way too much of an emphasis on pushing kids through a college system that doesn’t work for everyone and pressuring them to enroll at “prestigious” institutions rather than places that fit who they are and their goals. 

9. Use all that free time wisely!

Never again will you have as much free time as you do in college. Class from 11am until 2pm! Then afternoons and weekend free! Oh you don’t have Friday classes? What a paradise of irresponsibility! Partying every night! Sleeping until 2! But not so fast! All this free time is a precious gift not to be squandered on drunken bacchanals and sleeping until 2! After college it is 40 hour work weeks and days where you wished you just had 2 extra hours in the day to do something other than work, exercise, laundry and sleep. While you’re in college use all that time to pursue passion projects, start a business, get a side job and start saving money, join an inter-mural league, pick up a new hobby, learn a new language, exercise, the list goes on and on. Trust me on this one! Make sure you make it worth it! Never again will you have that kind of free time to pursue your dreams and goals. 

College is a tricky time full of expectations and hazy glimpses of an unclear future, and there are loads of things I wish I had known and can see clearer, now that I have left the dorms and dirty frat alleys behind. College is a time to explore and experiment and pursue, and yet life is too short to make all the mistakes yourself, sometimes you just have to learn from other people’s mistakes. 

Good Luck,

Ellie xoxo

Millennial Money Matters : Live off of Less

Money. Money. Money. Must be funny in the rich man’s world. Ahh the lyrics to another lit ABBA bop that also happens to be relate-able af. 

I know that this blog has primarily been about Millennial dating with splashes of culture critique here and there, but I want to chat a bit about money. Trust me I can make this relevant. You see money is a huge concern for millennials and ends up affecting their dating lives in many ways, whether they avoid it because they cant afford to take their Tinder hottie out to drinks, or girls looking for sugar daddies, or perhaps a man does want to propose because he is yet to get his finances in order. See I just tied it back to dating didn’t I? Money can actually have a huge impact on our dating lives whether we realize it or not. Truth be told money is the number one thing that couples fight about. If you can get your finances and debt in order now you will a. make yourself a more appealing mate and b. save yourself the trouble of entering into a debt ridden, financially unstable hot bed of resentment when you eventually want to settle down. 

The point is that money is a rather pressing matter for most Millennials, mostly because we are often caught in a dichotomous relationship with money and what we are suppose to be doing with it in our early twenties. On one hand the culture is rather adamant in telling us to “treat yo self” and that self care is comprised of luxury skin care purchases and manicures. We are often instructed that little luxuries are a right and not well…luxuries. On the other hand, we can’t seem to escape the deluge of news telling us how financially screwed millennials are, that we can’t afford homes due to our insatiable appetites for avocado toast, and we are drowning under student loan debt and that we are the most over educated and underemployed generation of all time. The two conflicting messages are confusing and daunting. One side of the story is telling me I am irreparably poor and the other is that I am entitled to constant frivolities. 
Where is the truth in this stream of messaging????

So first and foremost i want to unpack where these messages come from. They come from the media, an institution hell bent on keeping poor and miserable so that we look to them for whatever antidote they are selling. Obviously a “treat yo self” mindset is great for business! The spa business must be thriving! Likewise, financial consultation and so-called “get rich quick” schemes are big businesses in the western world, and the poorer people are, or at least feel (a la social media comparison) the more likely they are going to seek out solutions to problems that are perhaps not even real problems. Yeah, millennials have debt, but I wouldn’t exactly call them an impoverished generation with their fancy college degrees, North Face jacket collections, and Amazon Prime addictions. Yes, their 12 TV show subscriptions and weekly bottomless brunch routines might be irresponsible, but it doesn’t exactly scream financial struggling. All I am saying, is that it is possible the vague entity called the media is exaggerating/creating the “crisis” of millennials finances for their own benefit… Wouldn’t be the first time…

Now that we have called into question the legitimacy of millennial wealth or lack there of, lets get to my actual point. Millennials do have a lot of irresponsible money mindsets that i want to challenge. Regardless of where we rank on the salary totem pole, Millennials have an often negative relationship with money. They don’t know how to spend responsibly or save carefully and are unsure where to draw the line between the two. Moreover, most millennials just want to know how they can “live their truth” and follow their passions while also not going broke. 

The truth is that regardless of what you make you can still accumulate wealth. 

1. Change your mindset to live off of lessThink about how much you spend each month. Where does it all go? if you were to strip down that spending to the absolute bare bones necessity how much could you truly live off of? 
I want to challenge millennials to take a hard look at what really truly constitutes as necessary spending in their lives. When we make more we often spend more, but what if your expenditures did not change with income and your lifestyle remained the same no matter how much your salary increased over time? You would save a ton right!? Well that is the kind of mind set I want to encourage. Increasing our lifestyle every time we make more money keeps us enslaved to the system and creates wealth dependence not wealth Independence. When your lifestyle is independent of your income you are free from living paycheck to paycheck and your wealth is free to grow at increasing rates. So what does this look like? Reduce your lifestyle to bare bones necessities with a few splurges for priority items here and there and watch as you find yourself free from financial burdens. it is all about creating a more sustainable lifestyle, and not I am not talking about composting. It is about creating a lifestyle that doesn’t require much financial upkeep and leaves plenty of room for saving, rather than spending. So ditch the expensive habits and brand loyalty and treats in favor of a lifestyle that need only a minimum salary to maintain. 

2. Make sacrifices 
There is no such thing as wealth without sacrifice. It is a necessary component. What this means is that while you should treat yourself now and then and have a few splurges in which you enjoy your life, note that you will never accumulate wealth without making sacrifices in your spending and lifestyle choices. Shop at cheaper grocery stores, use coupons, drive a shittier car with cheaper insurance for a a while, delay gratification until you can actually afford it outright, say no to frivolous spending, live at home for a while,  say no to things you know won’t make you happier to add value to your life beyond a fleeting moment. I am not saying to quick eating out, but when you eat out that $30 meal lasted an hour, while the same 30 dollars could buy groceries for the week, or fill up your gas tank, or purchase a new dress that you wear for years. Be mindful of value and the value of the dollar. Recognize that sacrifice does not mean living worse with no benefits, it means making changes in which there will be more benefits in the future, such as a fatter savings account and the freedom to make bigger purchases when you are ready. Wouldn’t it be worth it to live at home for a year longer if it meant you could buy your own home 5 years sooner??? 

3. Become addicted to saving 
Saving money doesn’t sound like much fun, but once you start meeting those savings goals it is hard to not get excited watching that number in your account grow.  Soon making that account transfer is a source of endorphins and helps re-prioritize your spending. Perhaps that purchase you were saving up for does not really mean so much? Maybe it is more fun to keep your savings and keep growing it! 

4. Create new channels of wealth and never become dependent  on one channel 
The key to true financial independence is to never become dependent upon a sole income. When you are dependent upon that one income channel you reduce your options to make changes and adjustments in your life whether they are voluntary or involuntary. Being a slave to one job and one income means you are unable to step away from that position if you so chose, or perhaps if life got in the way. More income and more savings means more freedom and more options to make changes in your life. Maybe you want to go back to school or move to a new city or country, or stay at home with your kids more, or maybe you just want to take time off and travel, or maybe you want to go to part-time instead? Without single income dependence these opportunities become more manageable and realistic. As with dating, don’t put all your eggs in one basket, rather create a multitude of opportunities and possible opportunities for yourself. So what does this look like? It looks like having at least one side hustle, which in this gig economy is more than feasible, it looks like making investments with your savings, and it looks like saving as much of your salaries as you can. 

I know Instagram is a huge source of information on how our generation lives, or at least how we think our generation lives. Often times the ‘gram makes us think that the majority of our peers are on yachts in the Maldives sipping rose while you are at your cubicle job. This is both unrealistic and a false comparison based on a curated highlight reel. As a result, Instagram creates a lot of feeling of jealousy, inadequacy and social comparison that can drive us to a. feel bad about our own lives and b. inspire us to make purchases we don’t need. I myself have never spent more on skin care than I have while following beauty bloggers! It isn’t even necessarily that i am buying what they are selling , more that I felt more like I needed fancier skincare after watching their videos. It made me feel like I was one step closer to achieving their seemingly perfect lives. 

I think too often we get caught up with living our best life today, rather than preparing for our best life over the course of the next 40 years. And trust me when I say it does not take a fat salary to become wealthy, being wealthy really comes down to making wise money choices with whatever means you have, whether that be limited or abundant. Even if you have a entry level salary you can still save and accumulate wealth by living off of less, making sacrifices. becoming addicted to saving and creating multiple channels of income. 

Good luck,

xoxo Ellie

Ladies, are we discerning enough when it comes to what sorts of media we engage with?

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Remember when you were a kid and mom would say you were not allowed to watch certain movies? She would say it was because you were not old enough to watch such a scary/violent/inappropriate/(fill in the blank) movie, and that you had to wait until you were older. Up until a certain age mom and dad pretty much monitored whatever it was you were watching on TV or listening to on your Walkman (I am an adult millennial okay?). You probably tried to get away with watching an R rated movie or listening to that one 50 Cent song your mom would always turn off when it was on the radio. Then one day you were free! Somewhere between age 13 and 18, depending on how strict your parents were, the world of entertainment was your oyster! You could read all the Cosmo’s you wanted and watch any movie and listen to any unedited version of a song you wanted! In retrospect your fragile, malleable, pre-pubescent brain was not mature enough to engage with certain content. But as you got older and wised up the assumption became that you were mature and responsible enough to watch scary movies without having to lose a week’s sleep, or you could watch a TV show with sexual content and not be traumatized. 

Yet as we have grown up how often do we ask ourselves whether the media we engage with is toxic to us?  The assumption is that we are mature and responsible enough to make good choices about what we listen to, read and watch, and yet most adults rarely question their own media engagement or call into discussion it’s toxicity. 

I teach dance classes to young children and the other day I played the song “7 Rings” By Arianna Grande for my class to warm up to. One of the girls informed me that while it was one of her favorite songs she was no longer allowed to listen to it. I apologized, turned it off and asked if it was inappropriate, because to my knowledge there was only the muffled use of a bad word or two. She told me that her parents said they did not want her listening to the song because it gloried money and told listeners that money could solve their problems. My initial reaction to her explanation was that yeah she was right and that kids were too malleable to listen to certain messages even if it was just a  fun, catchy tune. Adults, on the other hand are discerning enough to recognize that it is just a fun song and that Arianna is not reallyinsisting that materialism is a solution to our problems or that money can substitute therapy. Right?! And yet as I thought more about the short interaction I began to realize that perhaps the 8 year old girl was imparting a wisdom that most adults were prone to shrug off and ignore because they were over calculating their own maturity. 

The reality is that even though we are supposedly educated, mature adults who have the ability to discern what is good for us and what is toxic, we rarely do it. We often put ourselves in the position as passive consumers of media rather than active ones. All too often we allow ourselves to succumb to the mind-numbing, almost comatose state of turning our brains off and passively absorbing the subliminal messaging all around.   How often do we stop and ask ourselves what the messages are in the songs we listen to and the TV shows we watch? And how often do we ask whether they are uplifting, truthful, and/or helpful to us? 

Back in the day most ads with hypnotic charms were aimed at kids, like sugary cereal ads where the kids would watch TV and then beg their parents for the same cereal at the super market. The media got in trouble for trying to manipulate and target kids who were not mature or intelligent enough to discern that the messages were meant to manipulate and beguile them. And while most people feel that was a triumph against the pervasive messaging of the omnipotent, omnipresent media, that same tactic regularly influences bona fide adults as they too shut their brains off and allow subliminal messaging to trigger deeply rooted emotions like a need to be liked/loved or to feel worthy and valued. 

When asked, most people are quick to admit that the “media” in general is “bad” for us. We are constantly coming into contact with “Fake News” and advertising that over-sexualizes and objectifies women. We continually bemoan the toxicity of mainstream news outlets like Fox and CNN that sensationalize news into a “he said she said” battle where correspondents and commentators see who can talk over one another the loudest about issues that are meant to keep us bickering rather than seek out solutions. We know that social media has a correlation to depression and that most rap songs have horrible messages and yet when do we actually say, “this is bad for me” and turn it off? How often do we truly recognize the intent of the media around us? That is often aimed at getting us to dislike something about ourselves that we are told can be fixed with a purchase. The media’s constant goal is keep us dissatisfied and until we recognize that and take steps to reduce our engagement we remain under it’s stronghold. 

So what types of media should we start analyzing more deeply? What kinds of messages are being perpetuated? There is a huge difference between screening out messages we KNOW are bad for us, and toxic messages that are disguised as empowering, positive messages. 


Everybody knows that most modern, popular music is garbage and yet we listen to it because we are “here for the beats and the not lyrics.” However, what we fails to recognize is that subliminal, subconscious messaging is a very potent form of communication. It is an effective form of propaganda that is often even more powerful because we too callously brush it off as “just a good song.”  But how often do we actually analyze the lyrics of our favorite jams as we sing along on our way to work? 

While we are aware that most rap music is misogynist and objectifying to women, most of our other favorite pop songs carry similar messages of over-sexualizing women, promoting promiscuity, romanticizing alcoholism, condoning violence against women, and worshiping of materialism and consumerism. While most of us are somewhat aware of these messages, we usually write them off without examining how much influence they carry over us and whether these are positive influences in our self-image, relationships, or view on money. For example, we are often unaware at how a song about women using men for money can affect how women are portrayed and how they act towards men. Or how a song glamorizing a breakup can influence our dating habits. 


Most glossy women’s magazines run a lot of similar content, something that should be our first tip off that print is no longer pure journalism, the helping hand of democracy, but rather a strong grip in keeping us dissatisfied. Most mainstream women’s magazines pose as “feminist” and “pro-women,” yet they are are more complicit than we realize in keeping us as comatose masses eager to pull out our purses and pursue hedonistic pleasure in the name of empowerment. Most women’s magazine’s perpetuate the idea that self care can be achieved through consumerism, as if a face mask will solve all your problems, or that self care could also be sitting in front of Netflix allowing yourself to be passively influenced and sold ideas. Either way selfish, pleasure-seeking, consumerist behavior has been repackaged and sold to millions of women as “self care.” Whose idea do you think that was? The beauty industry or a therapist? 

Magazines also communicate to women that promiscuity, pleasure seeking, hedonistic behavior is fun and empowering, although it is actually very damaging mentally and emotionally to lots of women. If we take a look at the root of these sorts of messages it makes sense that the media would want to keep women in a perpetual state of dissatisfaction with their lives, continually seeking out novel pleasures and material gratification. It is good for business! It also begs the question of where do most women get their information about feminism? From the media you say? And wouldn’t most women agree that the media is toxic in most forms? So why on earth would we trust the media’s take on feminism, especially if most of the media is owned by white, billionaire men with monopolies on the information we consume? 

Articles glorifying a career over a family and hook up culture over marriage present a singular idea of femininity under the false pretense of “supporting all women.” Moreover these narrow concepts of female empowerment often glamorize climbing the ladder of consumerist, corporate America and pursuing cheap, physical pleasures as “liberating” and “empowering” without offering alternative choices to women or exploring the pros and cons. 

Movies/ TV

Most of us have gotten pretty lax with the types of TV/movies we watch, always self-assured that our adult brains are not influenced by any amount of cursing, sex, or violence we may see on TV. Yet, what if those should not be our foremost worries? Violence and cursing have little to no impact on most women, however things like the way men and women are portrayed on TV/movies are potent indicators of female behavior and attitudes in real life. Most women fail to recognize the way relationships are shown in tv/movies and the effect they might have on how we view real relationships.

For example, most tv/movies positively portray promiscuity and hooking up as glamorous, fun, sexy, exciting and empowering with very little reveal of the emotional or mental consequences of casual sex. Likewise, media often shows a very negative portrayal of married life, as boring and soul-sucking with tropes such as the nagging wife, the lazy husband, marital weight gain, obnoxious children and lackluster (if any) sex lives. Ultimately, marriage is shown as the death of romance, while sex without commitment is fun and empowering.

On the other end of the spectrum movies and TV can also show romance in very idealistic terms that can also put wildly high expectations on dating and romance. We see images of firework first kisses and men as knights in shining armor there to rescue women from the misery of single life, and we become bitter when our real relationships don’t unfold quite like The Notebook or Titanic

Social Media

Yeah yeah yeah we have heard it before, Facebook is bad for us, and our generation is more depressed than ever due to comparisons of false realities on social media where people force us to watch their desperate attempts for attention and validations through “stories” and “posts.” And yet there is more than meets the eye in terms of why social media is toxic. 
I, like most millennial women, follow lots of influencers on social media. Now don’t get me wrong I very much admire the premise of bloggers, who are using social media to become empowered girl boss entrepreneurs. For the most part, most bloggers seem eager to spread beauty and positivity to other women, and yet why do I still always feel like I hate myself after I watch one of their stories about their vacay to Cabo or a post on Botox?

Why do I continue to feel a gnawing anxiety that I am not pretty enough or skinny enough or am failing to have a complex enough skincare routine? Am I suppose to be able to afford a Gucci clutch? Is my health at stake if I don’t have a 6$ green juice from a hip shop in LA? 

I think that while bloggers have mostly good intentions, these get lost in an overall materialistic concentration focused on sales. And unfortunately consumerism’s biggest advocate is a dissatisfaction with the way that we are naturally. Lots of followers are left with the impression that they are not meeting the continual demands for women to be thin and beautiful, in spite of messaging that we are “perfect just the way we are.” It is confusing and it is hypocritical. I am pretty enough, but I am definitely not the prettiest unless I have a new facemask??

We are continually told that it is the male perversion of beauty and male objectivity of females that keep us chasing unrealistic beauty standards, and yet these are women keeping us trapped in a rat race of dissatisfaction with our appearance. 


A lot of blogging is a carefully curated feed made to look perfect, and while we are mostly aware of this, it does not stop us from comparing our own “drab” lives to their “glamorous” ones. The affects of comparison are dissatisfaction, ungratefulness, selfishness and greed. 

SO what? Should I move to a cabin in the woods?

The most important step in getting out from under the media’s iron grip is to first recognize that every message the media sends is mostly about keeping us anxious, dissatisfied, unhappy, and in a continual state of seeking instant gratification, novelty, and pleasure to assuage our “unhappiness.” As soon as we recognize that, we can break free of the shackles. But the work does not end there. We need to focus on no longer being passively entertained by mindless media, and instead stay alert and discerning to messages. It is imperative that we bring into question what said messages are and how they are influencing us. Are they making us happier? Is it only for short bursts of time? Or are they making us feel more miserable in the long run? Are they keeping us glued to TV’s full of negative stereotypes about men and women? Are they keeping us chasing after material possessions in corporate America, but selling it as empowerment? Are they telling us what kind of woman to be and what “empowerment” looks like? Is the news just laundry lists of “bad” stuff going on and arguments meant to keep us distracted with issues that will be old news the next day anyways? 

It is important that we question and dissect the influx of messages around us. For example we should ask ourselves why casual sex is so glorified in almost every media outlet, is it because the media understands our needs, and wants what is best for us, or is it because they know that the constant pursuit of meaningless sex is ultimately dissatisfying and that a dissatisfied person is more likely to be an avid consumer of whatever “antidote” they are selling, whether it be alcohol, new clothes, a boob job, or a fad diet. 

The media has long believed that women were more influenced by pathos-based advertising due to our emotional nature and often uses that against women. This is why I encourage women especially to embrace empowerment not through consumerism and pleasure-seeking(ultimately fool-hardy pursuits), but through discernment and pursuing wisdom. Wisdom in the face of an avalanche of toxic, conflicting messages is the most empowering tool you can gain. True female empowerment comes from strong values rooted in truth and justice and discernment. 

Good luck,

Ellie x

Is the “get over him” mentality not allowing us to grieve properly??

Relationships are a huge part of our lives no matter how “empowered” we are. And although having a boyfriend or not having one is in no way a reflection of your value, it does not mean that the loss of a relationship does not hurt. 

The days of Ben and Jerry’s binges and long nights crying into a pillow are over. In recent years the idea of the breakup, and how one should treat a breakup, has had a vast makeover. Revenge bodies as inspired by Khloe Kardashian and rebound hotties are the new post-breakup traditions. 
As strong, empowered 21st century women we are not suppose to let men get us down. Men are not suppose to define our identities or our happiness. Sometimes this is taken to far out extremes where we are often taught through vague, innocuous terms that men are disposable. We are suppose to be so empowered that men have no effect on our well-being.  And yet sometimes that is not always an accurate reflection of reality.

The new breakup mentality is to “get over him” as swiftly and seamlessly as possible. Women are no longer suppose to cry over men or experience grief, rather they are encouraged to either shove their feelings under the rug and present a facade of un-bothered chill, or participate in often unhealthy behavior such as using alcohol and partying as a coping mechanism, or hook up as a way to feed a veneer of empowerment. This “get over him” mentality is highly problematic in that it does not allow for, or encourage women to properly grieve, and instead suggests “band-aid fixes” and instant gratification to fill a void. 

I think of lot of this lack of healthy grieving has to do with undefined relationships. With so many relationships in label limbo, ie friends with benefits, hookups and “things” that never really leave the “talking” stage of relationship development, lots of women have trouble justifying their own pain. They feel that because he was not their “real boyfriend” or it was “just sex” that they should not really be sad over him. They convince themselves that because it was not a “legit relationship” that they should be able to just move on quickly and “get over it.” Worse, they think that entering into a similar arrangement with the next guy will fill the void.

These are dangerous messages that many mainstream women’s media outlets promote. Women are repeatedly fed the idea that pleasure seeking and instant gratification are replacements for grief or counseling. Moreover, much of women’s mainstream media perpetuates the idea that empowered women move on quickly and don’t get hung up on feelings. 
“Feelings” in particular are an entity more and more women are looking to avoid in the dating arena. Ironically, what exactly is dating without feelings? Feelings have been labeled a death sentence for the “empowered” women who is not controlled or hindered by emotions or the high price of bonding and becoming vulnerable with someone. To the modern dater, feelings are synonymous with vulnerability and a lack of control of the situation.

Rather women are suppose to engage in casual sex sans feelings, something that is not really a reality for most women. The result is a lot of women who don’t end up feeling “empowered.” Instead they feel depressed, lonely, and unfulfilled. Much of said negative feelings has to do with the fact the relationship or lack there of was not properly grieved when it ended.
Unfortunately the culture does not provide women with the tools to understand why hookup culture leaves them feeling this way. Hookup culture and mainstream media gives women the impression that hooking up is sexy and fun and empowering, and then leaves women confused and insecure when it is not all that it is promised to be. 

Women are often berated and belittled for being the more “emotional” sex. This is the often cited reason for why there has yet to be a female president or why women can’t be in positions of power. While this is an unfair and degrading assessment of womanhood that many female leaders are working to break down, society still maintains the connotation that feelings are “vulnerable” and “weak”. Instead of allowing women to express their femininity and be celebrated for it, we tell women that in order to stand a chance in a man’s world and be taken seriously they have to disavow themselves from being “emotional,” “needy,” “clingy,” or just plain too “romantic” as if those are to be avoided like the plague instead of misunderstood components of the feminine psyche. What if we saw expressing emotions and feelings as wise and empowering instead of weak? How then would our view of women and hookup culture differ? 

Moreover, if “feelings” are the enemy then we are more likely to treat others with inconsideration and a lack of compassion. Teaching ourselves that it isn’t cool to “catch feelings” promotes a dating culture that is unkind, aloof, and unsympathetic, and results in far more heartbreak. Even if it isn’t “cool” that doesn’t make feelings any less legitimate or irrelevant. 
So if men are expendable and feelings are “uncool” we are left with a cold and un-compassionate hookup scene. We are left with a dating world where men are at a huge advantage and women do not have the tools or information to properly grieve relationships no matter what they look like. Does not sound very empowering to me. 

Contrary to mainstream messaging, grief is an integral part of moving on and finding future healthy relationships. We need to be able to allow ourselves the full spectrum of human emotions in order to process and move forward. There is no benefit to bottling things up or seeking out dangerous emotional behavior in the hopes of covering up our hurt. Although the self care industry will have us believe that retail therapy and body scrubs will alleviate stress or unhappiness, the truth is that mental and emotional self care cannot be purchased. Grief is a long, arduous mental process that requires times, patience, and the support of good relationships. 

The first step in the process is recognizing the hurt and legitimizing it. No matter whether it was a fling or a hookup or a one stand stand that has now ended in less than favorable terms, that hurt matters and is legitimate. It should be handled with grace and patience.

Some of the best things you can do for the grief of a relationship is to talk to a friend, exercise, do something fun that does not have to do with partying or alcohol or mind-altering substances, and get lots of sleep. It is important to allow yourself to feel the pain and say to yourself that it is okay to be upset. It is not you who is weak for feeling this way, it is the culture and it’s mentality of “get over it” that is damaging. 

I think this highlights an important trend in our society, that we value emotional stoicism and having the appearance of “having it all together” more so than we do actually doing the work that grief requires of us to get ourselves “together.”

I want to challenge women to help one another to properly grieve relationships, and allow one another to be upset without feeling weak or inferior for doing so. True empowerment comes from supporting and encouraging one another. It is also important to note that it is okay to seek out professional help, our friends cannot always be responsible for helping bear our burdens and sometimes counseling or therapy is necessary. This does not make someone weak, it means they are wise and introspective to seek out help when they need it. 

While the current dating culture is full of misinformation and un-compassionate attitudes, we can seek out positive behavior in ourselves that prioritize growth, wisdom, introspection, forgiveness and healing. It is also imperative that we recognize negative and problematic messages in our culture and take steps to instead seek out truth. When we stop to ask ourselves why the culture might promote certain ideas and whether they are helpful to us is the first step in breaking free from negative influences and learning to be discerning consumers of information. 

Good luck,
Ellie xx

The Low-Down on Dating Apps

Picture this:

You just got back from dinner with your girlfriends. You had a  great time catching up and hearing about one another’ lives. You sipped wine and giggled about work, boys, and The Bachelor. And yet there is a lingering anxiety in the back of your mind. All of your friends are in great relationships…Except you... One is engaged. The other just started seeing this super cool guy who started his own company. The other girl has a long term boyfriend who is apparently great in bed. You are totally happy for them, and yet you cannot quite put your finger on it, it is sort of an impending worry, quietly hissing at you to get a move on, you’re missing out! 

Like any good, modern woman, you furrow your brow and recite to yourself how much of an empowered woman you are, who does not need a man to complete her and how fulfilled your life already is. And yet….there it is again… the light tap on the back of your shoulder, the worry that you will end up alone with 56 cats and gets excited for TSA to feel you up at airports. You cringe. 

You quietly whisper “fuck it,” under your breath as you pull out you phone and re-download a dating app. 

You swore this was not how it was going to be and that this style of dating was, “totally not for you” and yet you need the reassurance that there are options, possibilities, even hope. You don’t even have to go on any dates. Just chat with a few hotties, even if only to encourage yourself you still got it…

Sound familiar?

Pretty sure if you have been single at all since 2012 you have experienced some form of this scenario. 
In theory, dating apps are great. Who does not want to judge strangers or flirt with hotties all night long without ever putting on pants? And the options… hot damn we have never been provided with so many options before! It is like an all-you-can-eat-Vegas-buffet of dating! 

Yet, once the initial glow of judging random strangers on totally shallow characteristics has worn off, we rarely find ourselves excited by the prospect of tossing up a photo on the internet and hoping complete strangers will not be repulsed by us. Sure the whole swiping thing is fun and feels like a game, but after a while dating apps can start to feel less like innocent fun and more like a last-ditch alternative to dying alone or missing out on love. They certainly are not always the Band Aids to our love lives that they are sold to us as. 

Sometimes dating apps become subtle ego boosters, where we seek them out in the hopes of re-affirming our own attractiveness. We really do not want to spend the evening with a stranger making small talk, but we would not mind some harmless flirty banter just to remind ourselves that we are desirable…

Dating apps effect us each on an individual basis. For some it is Camelot and for others it is the 9th layer of Hell. And yet regardless of our dating preferences, dating apps retain similar consequences for all of us. It really boils down to whether the pros outweigh the cons or vice versa. Are we willing to brave the stormy seas of ghosting and meeting strangers and vulnerability in search of love, or is modern dating the equivalent of the proverbial frog in boiling water? Are we just normalizing a negative dating environment?

So how do dating apps affect us? Are they bad news or modern marvels?

  1. Dating apps can lead to increased anxiety

According to dating expert, Anita Chlipala there is a correlation between increased levels of anxiety and depression. This is due to increased exposure to rejection. While dating apps have increased the sheer volume of interactions, they have also increased the volume of rejections that occur. Other things that can make us feel anxious and/or cynical about our dating prospects are low numbers of matches, excruciatingly long periods between communication, crude messages, and ghosting. While there are compliments and flattery to be exchanged, feelings of rejection or harassment often weigh heavier on participants and can impact self consciousness.  Basically a few hurtful exchanges can spoil the experience.

Another factor that increases anxiety is the sheer amount of conversations and interactions one might be juggling. Sure this might sounds like most single peoples’ dreams, but for women especially this can cause stress to the point of wanting to delete the app. Lots of women experience anxiety at having to maintain several different conversations. Coupled with the fact that most interactions lack humanity (a result of not having met in person), many women come to point where they are both overwhelmed and don’t feel invested anymore and either end the conversations or ghost. 

  1. Low Self esteem

Yes, dating apps have the potential to make us feel like desirable sex goddesses when hoards of matches message you to tell you what a snack you are. On the other hand, large volumes of rejections, ghosting, and lack of matches can do serious damage to our self esteem, especially if we believe( incorrectly) that our peers are having loads of success on dating apps and hopping into bed with every hottie they match with. Please see: Getting It on Millennial Edition.

We start to question what is wrong with us and worry that we are missing a crucial ingredient to our dating life. We are often left under the impression that those on dating apps are hooking up right and left and getting loads of matches and exchanging nudes on the daily. This perception leaves many feeling inadequate or undesirable based on a false comparison. The truth is that most users only use apps sporadically and most people do not engage in random hookups with strangers. Generally most people get ghosted or stood up just as often as their peers.

  1. Easier to become dissatisfied

 It is all about expectations. When there are soooo many possible dates, apps can create feelings of dating abundance. Yet, this often promotes higher expectations for dates and matches. When we assume there could always be someone better this can inspire users to move on quickly from prospects without truly giving them a chance. The idea that there is always someone hotter, smarter, cuter, richer out there keeps us swiping and keeps us continually dissatisfied with results. This is not to say that we have to go out with everyone we match with, only that an attitude of “never good enough” creates unhappiness and excuses us from challenging ourselves to work on our current relationships.

Another consequence of this is dating fatigue, where we become swamped with so many choices, and so many possible choices, that we fail to invest in any of them. Combined with continually unmet expectations, users can become fatigued with dating and either quit or become cynical. 

Ugh so are dating apps a total drag?

Not at all! We all know that engaged couple that met on an app. In fact it is 30% of couples these days….The point is to recognize toxic situations, attitudes, and behaviors and either make changes or get away. If dating apps are making you feel miserable, anxious, insecure or overwhelmed feel free to delete the app. Trust me when I say it is not the necessity to a full dating life that pop culture makes it out to be. You can still meet people IRL. 

It is also important to recognize your dating style. We all date differently. Dating apps work really well for some people and for others they cause crippling anxiety and fear… and that is okay! It is perfectly okay to meet strangers online if that floats your boat, and it is also totally okay to need to get to know people and have some mutual history first. It is okay to feel like dating apps are not for you and to reject them entirely, this sentiment will not make you a Puritan or a prude. The important thing is to recognize this and own it. 

But are there ways to make the dating app experience better?? For sure! 

  1. Don’t try to talk to everyone all at once. Just because you matched or they reached out, don’t feel like you are missing out or have to respond. This is a good way to avoid getting burned out or overwhelmed. 
  2. If people are crass or rude, do not engage. There will always be jerks, but learn to pick your battles. 
  3. Reject any notion that dating apps are the end-all-be-all of your romantic life. They are not a necessity or an indicating factor of whether or not you are hot or desirable or cool or destined for a life of loneliness. 
  4. Remember that most people are experiencing the same frustrations you are. It is a false comparison to feel that you are “failing” at dating while everyone else is banging and going out on cool dates and meeting their soul mate. 
  5. If you do start chatting with someone that peaks your interest above the rest, it is better to meet sooner than later. The sooner you meet in person the sooner that individual becomes a real person and not just an icon on your screen. The sooner you meet up, the quicker you can determine real chemistry or attraction, as opposed to guessing and making assumptions via vague texts and unclear syntax, emojis, tone, etc. 
  6. Meeting strangers for sex might seem like a easy solution to a lackluster dating life, but don’t be lulled into a false sense of security by the false reality that everyone is doing it. Meeting strangers is always dangerous. And “meaningless” sex with strangers can not only be physically dangerous but also mentally and emotionally. 

So there you have it.

Dating apps have their pros and cons, but the most important take away is that we use the marvels of modern technology as discerning consumers, bearing in mind their effects, influences and implications. 

Dating apps should not feel like a plea-bargain to not be alone any longer, or a desperate attempt to get out of single hell. Dating apps shouldn’t be viewed as a “quick fix” solution to a crotch that might be overgrown with cobwebs. Just because it might seem like anyone and everyone are shacking up these days, does not mean you need to rush into the arms of the first person who gives you attention or “super likes” you. You are wayyyy better than that, and just believing that for yourself is enough to exude the type of confidence to lure in other confident, successful hotties (like yourself) IRL.

Good luck,
Ellie xx

Dear 2018: Thank u, next

“Thank u, next.” Anyone want to make a bet on how many girls are gonna use this as the caption on their ‘gram tonight????

And while many girls are going to spew Arianna Grande lyrics all night and still end up in the bed of their fuckboi hookup who can’t/won’t commit this New Year’s Eve, you, you reader, are an intellectual. You will not let 2019 beat yo ass the same way 2018 did. You will get real about working out, getting clear skin, leaving behind toxic relationships, being responsible, saving money, paying off debt, and making strides in your career. You know why? Because you, enlightened 20-something-year-old reader are making the life-altering realization that your 20s aren’t just for fucking around/ finding yourself.

Sure there ought to be a bit of that, but don’t let the internet and memes and society lead you astray with the misguided notion that your 20s are a bullet proof time to make mistakes and you are invincible from any real consequences. If you are gonna make mistakes in your 20s they need to be things like starting a business and watching it fail and then being inspired to work harder or realizing you are dating a shit person and then leaving for one that is more fulfilling. When did “finding yourself” go from meaning “self growth and exploration” to trying fuck as many people as possible during your gap year in Eastern Europe? But somewhere along the way everyone confused “your 20s is for making mistakes” to mean that your 20s is to act like an irresponsible moron without consequences. False. Every day my Instagram feed is convoluted with memes that romanticize acting a fool in your 20s and sleeping with fuckbois and blacking out and being poor and making poor choices. If you can really laugh at those sorts of choices without irony or self-deprecating humor you are privileged. Most of us can’t get away with living like that without consequences, it catches up to us.

Our twenties are about setting yourself up to live and have lived an awesome life in your 30s and 40s and 50s and beyond, not making poor choices and hoping they will all just be funny stories in the nursing home. Because the truth is that these choices matter, maybe not a single one, but they add up and a whole decade of living recklessly and irresponsibly is masochistic.

Instead let your 20s be the years you build your empire. Have fun, play hard, work hard, and have adventures. Don’t waste your weekends getting drunk and hooking up with losers. Meet people with ambition and goals and self-respect. Be patient with relationships. Leave toxic relationships behind. Don’t waste your best years of health and vitality sitting on the couch eating Kraft Mac n’ cheese watching Netflix. Eat healthy, get a fitness routine, pick up a new sport, try new things, form a skincare routine. Don’t waste prime earning years squandering your money on bullshit like going out and tanning salons. Invest your money. Get a Roth account. Save. Save. Save. Live at home if you must. Live within your means. Stop eating out all the time. Learn to cook. Bring a lunch. Start using coupons. Set aside money for investments like property and stocks. Save money for emergencies. Don’t take our loans unless your ROI is proven. Don’t “buy” things if you can only afford to lease them. Work hard at your job. Show up on time. Grow and develop your professional resume. Network. Always look ahead to your next career move. Set goals. Don’t waste your time seeking instant gratification, instead seek out long term results and fulfillment.

Don’t let age 30 creep up on you while you are still at the bar picking’ up chicks and going home with fuckbois and eating drunk pizza at 2am wondering where your life went and why you didn’t leave the college life behind when you graduated?

Forget the socially-ingrained lie that it is better to not care or to not “give a fuck,” because that is how to keep expectations and unhappiness at bay. In 2019 you should absolutely give a fuck. Care about hobbies and people and your career and your future. Respect this next year as an opportunity to lay a foundation for the next year and the year after that and the year after that, and watch as you lap everyone around you. Cheers!

good luck and happy New Year,

Ellie x

20 Types of Hookups


Unfortunately not all hookups are as sexy as this highly edited, posed photograph…

Hooking up.

Awww yes, the common dating practice of our cultural zeitgeist. Some love it. Some hate it. But whether you like it or not it is happening. Sorry mom and dad.

There is definitely a time and place for “the hookup” and it is generally in your 20’s when you are trying to discover who the hell you are. The hookup is often a catalyst to discovering what you like, what you don’t. What feels good and what feels like garbage. It is also a great space to figure out what you are actually doing. First assignment: find the clit.

It is also an often necessary hurtle in determining that hooking up is actually not sustainable. Sorry folks. The chances are slim that you will still be slamming vaj or sucking a new dick on the reg when you are 45. By that point you will have probably decided that you have been there and done that. But how else are you to know if you have not “been there and fucked that???”

A hot new conquest every month or year is usually only fun during that decade of self exploration we call our twenties. After that we start to wonder if this is it? Or responsibility calls our name away from the frat house basements and weekends spent blacking out and blacking back in mid-coital. You can only head home with blurry memories of a sweaty night in between the sheets so many times before you decide to retire for a life of soccer games and family screaming matches board game night. One day you’ll decide it is time to exchange screaming into your partner’s ear that you are going to cum for screaming at the ref at your child’s t-ball game. But that is ages away, so live in the now and enjoy being horny and in your twenties.

Yet in your 20s is the best time to cut loose and get freaky with a diverse assortment of characters. Some will provide us with titillating memories that we will take to the grave, and others will have you hanging your head in shame wondering what exactly you were smoking. So what types of players can you expect to end up in bed with as you set out on your Carrie Bradshaw-esque expedition???

  1. The friends-with-benefits-whom-you-secretly-love hookup– not to cause an uproar at the use of stereotypes, but this is a pretty common occurrence among females and it is just because of the way our brains and bodies work. We get attached okay??!! Things start out casual and steamy and then heaven forbid those pesky feeling get involved and you start fantasizing about a real bona fide relationship. Unfortunately he or she just isn’t on the same page…

2. The self-esteem boost- this is the person we go to when we want to feel desired. When the fish just aren’t biting and the dating apps have gone cold, we return to old faithful to make us feel less like leftover, soggy fries. This is the person whose bodies we are probably using just to get a self esteem boost. It is nice to feel wanted okay??

3. The “alcohol made me do it’ hookup– if you are in college there is a 10/10 chance you will experience this one. Alcohol makes us both horny and illogical, two powerful aides in the hookup. Alcohol is also a valuable tool of plausible deniability when we don’t want to take responsibility for what we did or who we did.

4. The rebound– breakups are hard, but guess who isn’t thinking about their ex while cumming all over some other girl’s tits???

5. The study abroad hookup– i mean did you even study abroad if you didn’t fuck Paulo and get to sing with him in a live concert while also twinning with his duet partner??? When in Rome…

Not all of us can expect to have as good a time as Lizzie

6. The we-are-never-going-to-see-each-other-again hookup– similar to the study abroad hookup in which the decision to have sex is based primarily off the fact that you will never see this person again, or perhaps not for a long time, and that itself is a catalyst for YOLO and FOMO, better get a move on.

7.  Fuck buddies- all you do is fuck. The word “buddies” is superfluous and unnecessary.

8. Cure the loneliness hookup– Sometimes loneliness lowers our standards in which a desperate beast emerges, clamoring for the dick or pussy, of someone, anyone. Sometimes we are moving on from someone else and just need a good fuck to set us back on the path of logic and confidence.

9. The sober booty call– much less ubiquitous than the drunk counterpart, but hey it happens. Not all hookups have to be at night under the clouds of intoxication. Sometimes we actually like to remember what happened. Sometimes we like to start our mornings with a healthy bang.

10. The dating app hookup – or as I like to call it: The pizza delivery of sex. 90% of people on dating apps are just trying to bang and these people are not worried about “stranger danger.” These can either end in a great story to regale your brunch compatriots with, or with you dead in a ditch with severed limbs. Up to you whether it is worth the gamble.

11. Hate sex– you swore you would never end up with someone like them. You detest their entitled attitude. you loath their arrogance and douchey ways. You disagree with everything they say, in fact you disagree with their very existence. And yet, where did your clothes go???? You know they say that hate and love are actually more closely related than we think.

12. The “ooops i did it again” – Oh no you have woken up to find yourself naked in bed with the same guy whose number you swore up and down to your friends you would block. Well, better fuck him one more time for good measure before you say goodbye… for good this time…

 13. The douche-we all have that one (or more…) sexual experience where we acted like a total douche. Maybe we told someone to leave in the morning or lied to get them in bed…

14.  “somebody fell in love and now it is awkward” – You said you just wanted something casual, and now they are “in love” and “can’t imagine their life without you” and ” think you are God’s gift to them” and blah blah blah… what a drag.

15. The hot stranger- maybe they are in your class, maybe you saw them from across the room at a party. You know next to nothing about each other and that is the way you would like to keep it as you rip each other’s clothes off.

 16. The weird kink– this is the hookup where the person turns out to be a major freak, or in an effort to sound more tolerant and less judgey, they er… have different sexual preferences than you do. Perhaps they wanted you to fuck them in the ass with a dildo during your first sexual encounter. Maybe they have a hundred dolls on their bed all watching you with their beady eyes as you bone. *shivers*

17. The hookup who shall not be named – this hookup is like Voldemort, even just saying their name inspires fear, regret and terror. Perhaps it was a major regret, like sleeping with an ex or a friend’s ex, or just a super freaky/ugly/horrible person whom you never want to remember being naked with. Either way you don’t want to re-live it.

18. The numbers game– the hookup you have just to reach a certain number of sexual conquests.

19. Resume sex– the sex you have just for the story. Perhaps it was to fuck a teacher or to sleep with a cage dancer in Vegas. Or maybe you didn’t have anywhere you sleep one night so you fucked someone for somewhere to stay. It is about forgoing regret and doing something for the sake of how hilarious it will sound being re-told at brunch this weekend.

20. The Everybody-has-done-it– Everyone has had sex with this guy or girl and so you would be an absolute loser to call yourself a promiscuous, sexually liberated individual without having gotten busy with this person. It is sort of a social rite of p(ass)age if you will.

*Bonus #21 The hookup that turns into a real relationship! A hookup as rare as a virgin in the college Greek system, this is one where both parties have sex/fool around/makeout/hand stuff/get naked and then mutually decide they have feelings for one another, and then use words to discuss their feelings and their desires for a committed relationship…and then follow through! But hey just because it is rare does not mean it does not exist or cannot happen!

Some hookups will have you singing from the rooftops with post-coital pleasure while others will have you drowning your miseries in an over-indulgence of Ariana Grande. Thank u, next anyone?? Either way, the hookup is a valuable learning experience meant to de-mystify sex and give you plenty of inappropriate stories to regal your grandchildren with.

I look forward to decades from now when nursing homes are full of millennials reminiscing about Tinder hookups and memes from their youth, while the young nurses shake their heads fondly wishing it was like the old days when people still ghosted and drunkenly had sex with their friends. Awww how romance has died… they will think to themselves.

Good luck,

Ellie xo